The 140 pages of the diary of Madeleine's mother, considered vital by
the PJ for the investigation of the case, reflect a woman obsessed by
her children's sleep, as well as an extreme concern to place the blame
on Murat and by what she describes as "sloppiness" on the part of the
Portuguese and British police.
"4th May. Barely having slept, I woke Amanda. Gerry and I began to
search the streets at six in the morning when dawn began to break. We
didn't find anything. I'm desperate".
These are the first words that Kate wrote in her diary. This is the
Portuguese translation of this diary, that is not included in the case,
which Maddie's mother began to write upon the suggestion of Philomena
McCann, also following the advice of a psychologist.
Almost 140 pages in which Kate addresses Maddie with sentences such as:
"We have to keep looking, we have to find you, sweetheart. I love you
An essential document in the police's view in order to define Kate's
profile as a mother. Analysed by police psychologists, the different
sentences of the diary show the facet of a caring and patient mother
that contrast with other notes that reflect what the officers define as
Kate's other face: the mother, extremely exhausted by caring for three
children whom she daily takes to the Ocean Club crèche, before and after
A mother obsessed by her children's sleep, noted in expressions such as
these: "Sean slept with us for most of the night after half an hour of
hysteria at 12.30". Or on another page: "I tried to take Sean and Amelie
to bed at 9.30, but it became very late again, especially with Amelie".
A week later she notes in her diary: "Sean and Amelie's biological
clocks have altered. They go to bed later and get up later. They seem to
have become Portuguese!" The investigators are surprised that Maddie's
mother writes details such as these: "Sean and Amelie in their beds
(with blankets) after the confusion of the last seven days". Why this
obsession with the time and the way of getting the children to sleep?
Why does Kate note the detail of the blankets? These are some of the
investigators' questions. Details from a diary which indicates Gordon
Brown's phone calls and which also reflects other obsessions such as the
extreme concern to place the blame on Murat and what she describes as
"sloppiness" not only on the part of the Portuguese but also the British
police whom she accuses of committing errors that eliminate some of the
evidence of the investigation.
The diary's contents were never admitted as evidence.